I think the reason that I have no close friends or relationships is because I don’t have emotional empathy. Like I can see someone smiling, identify that they must be feeling happy, but I don’t feel any happiness from someone else’s happiness. Or like I can see a homeless person is unhappy, and I can imagine being homeless (which must suck) but other people’s unhappiness doesn’t make me unhappy (which is why I don’t mind the presence of homeless people). I think these things mean that I don’t have emotional empathy and I think that emotional empathy is a requisite thing for relationship forming. Perhaps that’s why people with narcissistic personality disorder have no close friends - they have no emotional empathy. I also think that perhaps autism spectrum people have this problem. I think that this is a big contributor to incel-dom. Lemme know if you don’t have empathy and if you have a mental health disorder or personality disorder.
Update Or maybe the reason I have no long term relationships (other than my mother) is that I just don’t care about anyone other than myself. Or maybe I don’t want to maintain a relationship with anyone. I’m not 100% sure.