I never thought to ask for feedback, nor would it make sense. Escorts are basically actors, they’re there to make you feel good. The last thing any good escort is going to do is give you constructive criticism of your performance. If they started doing that, they’re either going to lie and tell you that you’re great, or they’re going to tell you the truth, and therefore hurt their own business. Even if I was somewhat okay in my performance, I wouldn’t believe her. One girl I’ve seen a couple of times says that I seem to know what I’m doing down there, and it’s nice to hear, but I’m paying her good money to compliment and fake her way through an hour of intimacy.
I’m going to have to say I’m a bit of both of those. It’s only been in the last year or two that I’ve come to realize that I need to move on from the idea of having hope a relationship might happen some day. It won’t. However I’m still quite bitter, angry and frustrated by it. I’ve wanted nothing more in my entire life than to have a girlfriend, be in a long-term monogamous relationship, and to one day get married, and I’ve been this way ever since before I hit puberty. I can’t explain it, it’s just always been like that for me. I feel I’ve done everything that society has told me to do in order to attract a woman into my life, and nothing’s worked. I even tried the opposite, and I still had the same results; no interest from women beyond platonic friendships.
As much as I know I need to move on with my life, it’s difficult of letting go of something I’ve desired for so long. So I’m in that middle stage where I haven’t quite moved on, but I also know I need to. It’s a tug of war between my heart and my head. Logically I know it’s never going to happen, but my heart still wants it.
I do what I need to do in order to survive. I’m a wage slave, even at 40. I have no real savings, and cannot afford to truly do the things I want or enjoy. I’m also child of the 80’s, so I am a bit materialistic, but only with things that I really like. For example, I’m what you would call a cinephile, I love movies. To have the home theater system I dream of would cost me more than what I can afford, especially when I already have substantial debts from school and a failed business. It would be irresponsible of me to spend money on things I cannot currently afford, so therefore, I’m not enjoying or experiencing life to the fullest as I would like.
I wish I could sit back and enjoy those things, but I’m always working, with no time or money to do so. Messaging women and dating sites are a waste of time, based both on my own personal experiences with in real life and online. Online dating is reserved for above average looking men only. This isn’t some sort of incel nonsense that normies like to call us out on, it’s actual literal fact. I went Chadfishing a little over a month ago, just to see it for myself. And like everyone says, it’s true. Same profile, just with different photos, and the good looking dude has nothing to do but sit there and have women ready to jump into bed with him on the first message. It’s pure insanity, and quite sad to see where a guy like myself really stands in the food chain of sexual market value; I’m not even a candidate to even get into the game.
So to answer your question, no, I don’t message women on dating sites. It’s a waste of time.