I feel so depressed and unmotivated this morning. Hardly anyone accepts me in this world and its a crappy feeling. I would say the vast majority of women don’t even give me a second glance. I try to make friends and every one of them I lose, despite putting in effort. I cannot get a job despite being through countless interviews. I am getting sick and tired of putting effort in with absolutely no results.
I am not sure why, despite the fact I am trying, I cannot make proper friends or develop a relationship with a woman. I have never even been out on a proper date, have never held a girls hand, and have never kissed a girl.
I am getting extremely depressed and unmotivated.
I am even no longer excited when playing chess, it just feels like I am going through the motions at this point.